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Thought I’d approach with a note
To avoid the lump in my throat
I walked before she read what I wrote
I didn’t expect the reply
A big “yes”, but a caveat caught my eye
“You should know that I leave in July”
I wrote a list
Of what I want to do
Before we’re no more
I know it will hurt, but it’s worth it
Never been so honest before
I guess it’s just easier with a foot out the door
The irony hits as I reach in her drawer
I thought if I thought of her leaving
I could control all the feeling
But I’m left feeling more and more
I wrote a list
Of what I wanted to do
Now you’re gone
Packed up, moved on
I chose to love
It was worth it
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It’s been a while since we’ve fought
I’ve thought about it a whole lot
There’s something that’s gnawing at me
How can I put into words?
Is this a good time?
I haven’t really thought that much
About the last time we touched
I guess that I don’t really mean
I mean, I think I read it differently
I guess its a good time
I know underneath it all
There’s a feeling hiding
Coming out as an attack
And it’s causing bleeding
You can tell me
When you’re ready
(You can tell me when you’re ready)
(You can tell me when you’re ready)
I know they’re coming out too loud
Sloppy hacked words out my mouth
A weapon I didn’t intend
Did I forgot you’re my friend?
I just need you to hear me out
It didn’t come across that way
I really think that we’re okay
I know that I get worried too
So black and white and black and blue
I don’t know what else to tell you
I know underneath it all
There is something missing
Maybe there is a need
That needs some dusting
Can you feel it?
I can sense it
(I wonder how far we’ll go?)
(Will we make it till we’re old)
(I wonder how far we’ll go)
(Will we make it till we’re old)
Wonder how far we’ll go
Make it until we’re old
Wonder how far we’ll go
(You can tell me)
Make it until we’re old
(When you’re ready)
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I’m stuck in a whirlpool
A four-second loop
How did I end up here?
All my attention consumed
So now, I’m offline
Eluding your lure for my life
You can’t pull me out of the water
This water’s mine
I’m offline
I’m offline
It changed my mind now
Nothing is enough
Every four seconds
I second guess myself
So now, I’m offline
Eluding your lure for my life
You can’t pull me out of the water
This water’s mine
(I’m offline)
I don’t want to be like an NPC
I’ve got warm blood and the sun’s energy
Dig into the earth like a big birch tree
Reach into the moon as it reaches for me
(I’m offline)
I don’t want to be would-be debris
I want to bear fruit like a red cherry tree
Taste all the flavors, rosemary, green tea
I want something in which to sink my teeth
(I’m offline)
I don’t want to be like an NPC
I’ve got warm blood and the sun’s energy
Dig into the earth like a big birch tree
Reach into the moon as it reaches for me
(I’m offline)
I don’t want to be would-be debris
I want to bear fruit like a red cherry tree
Taste all the flavors, rosemary, green tea
I want something in which to sink my teeth
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I’m sick of the wind
Always trying to direct me
As if it knows best
Now I’m out lost at sea
Now, you’ll never find me
But I can feel your waves crashing
And if you really miss me
Just listen to the sirens sing
I spot a storm port and starboard
I see another stern and forward
(Ooh)
There’s nowhere left to turn
Now I’ve got all of my anchors out
They hold me tight as they sink in the ground
Your winds will not blow me around
But the breeze is nice
It cools me down
Cools me down
I’m out to find
An island that fits my life
I’m sick of the grind
To make myself fit a type
Even as the days go by
I can’t forget the look in your eyes
If you would just find the time
I would give you all of mine
I spot a storm port and starboard
I see another stern and forward
(Ooh)
There’s nowhere left to turn
Now I’ve got all of my anchors out
They hold me tight as they sink in the ground
Your winds will not blow me around
But the breeze is nice
It cools me down
Cools me down
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I’m surprised no one has noticed
I made a copy of myself
I thought I’d have another
One to keep and one to sell
But now I’m not quite certain
Which one is the real version
I can modify the moment
Instead of putting it to bed
And now I can’t remember what I ate for dinner
Let alone the rest
And now I’m feeling desperate
To be something imagined
I’ve had enough of this thin glass that’s holding me back
From the people and places I lack
I only see a back-lit idea of a world
That’s delivering on none of its word
I’ve had enough of this thin glass that’s holding me back
From the people and places I lack
It’s a two-dimensional analogy
For something we actually need
I’m surprised no one has noticed
I made a copy of myself
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It was last week
I took Trax to your apartment
To get a few things
But mainly for my succulents
‘Cause it’s about time
I take care of what’s mine
And cut ties
Get some water and sunshine
What can I say?
It’s always this way
What can I say?
It’s always this way
It’s been a few weeks
Now my plant is thriving
But I still think of you
Especially when I’m driving
What can I say?
It’s always this way
What can I say?
It’s always this way
(Day after day)
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Pick myself up off the ground
Wet cement, town to town
Why is there no one else like me around?
I feel the rain drops grow
Wet coat, soaked to the bone
Never thought I’d have to live alone
I miss the warmth of your old baseboard heating furnace
Long quiet candlelit nights curled up on the carpet
Strangers reach for my neck
Looking for a name or place to redirect
But the weathered words are too worn to detect
I miss the warm embrace
Of your palm on my face
Long sunsets on the front porch
Everything was okay
I miss those routine morning walks
(I’m wondering, I’m wondering)
(Will you help, will you help me?)
Soaking up the season
(I’m missing someone)
Down by your knees
(I’m wondering, I’m wondering)
My short life span was eternity
(Have you seen, have you seen my missing dog?)
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You said I’d wreck before I’d sail
If I take on water
I’ll happily bail
You said that I should just give up
Sure, I’m not Barbie
But I am “Kenough”
And if I land on my face
I’ll face the music
While on holiday
I’ll make something they never could dream
‘Cause I can do anything
Yeah, I can do anything
At all
I’m sailing through the sky
Wax wings, I’m flying high
And if I fall I’ll fall like it was my design
Can’t keep myself from scheming
Like I can’t keep from breathing
If I crash into the sea, I’ll wash up on the beach
All hail the whale so we can transcend
If I’m not an island
I’ll order a drink instead
I’ll write a poem, rearrange the words
I’m writing on napkins
And quenching my thirst
The scrawl is a scribble, the scribble a script
I’m scripting my escape
While biting my lip
And if I can’t even the odds
Then I’ll steal from the gods
And I’ll sing them a song
About what I stole
I’m sailing through the sky
Wax wings, I’m flying high
And if I fall, I’ll fall like it was my design
Can’t keep myself from scheming
Like I can’t keep from breathing
If I crash into the sea, I’ll wash up on the beach
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So far I’ve been honest with you
I’m falling back on everyone
And I’m holding light
But I’m coming back
And telling lies in the falling night
I’ve thought it through
Would I bring in someone new?
I’m not sure, but I’m curious
Despite the forest fires, bright lights and wires
Sharing it all makes it worth it
So I felt it through and through
I’m surprised at the way you do
So far I’ve been honest with you
I’m falling back on everyone
And holding lives
But I’m calling back
And I’m telling lies
In the fallen night
I’ve thought it through
Would I bring in someone new?
I’m not sure, but I’m curious
Despite the forest fires, bright lights and wires
Sharing it all makes it worth it
I’ve thought it through
Would I birth myself anew?
Despite the wars and drought
Sad days and drought
Moments with you make it worth it
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Are you really gone?
Or are you still here somewhere just floating around?
You are a ghost
I can’t figure this out
I’m sipping coffee from your old mug
But there’s more missing than I have drunk
Well I don’t really have an explanation
Maybe it was just evaporation
Are you really gone?
Or are you still here somewhere just floating around?
Are you a ghost?
I can’t figure it out
Shadows move across my room
I swear, I saw one that looked like you
(That looked like you)
Was it just my imagination?
(Was it just my imagination?)
Could it have been your apparition?
Are you really gone?
Or are you still here somewhere just floating around?
Are you a ghost?
I can’t figure it out
Are you really gone?
Or are you still here somewhere just floating around?
Are you a ghost?
I can’t figure it out
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I remember as a child
That one year spring came early
Before my birthday
And the sun was like gold
Melted on my shoulders
As I grabbed my handlebars and rode
Around, around, around
Until the sun went down
When I could make believe
Every tree-lined street was a forest
And days were mine to keep
Now, I give them all away
For reasons I can’t seem
To find, find, find
I used to shine, shine, shine
I used to find delight
But I’ve been changed by modern devices
I’ve got a pocket filled with life
Yet somehow end up empty handed
I used to find delight
But I’ve been changed by modern devices
I’ve got a pocket filled with life
Yet somehow end up empty handed
So I reach in my mind for a simpler time
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Almond eyes except built underground
(Further into dirt)
Avocado heart we kept around
(Deeper ever still)
Halfway and almost out
I’m agony
I’m not afraid to try sitting with an unmet mood
With wisdom, ankle deep is enough
But with love, I’m underwater
Looking up at the sun
Plant to face, embrace the capacity
(Dig into the earth)
Honor on your own your organ’s ebb and glow
(Your own self you’ll know)
I turned the furnace up to 70
Then I went away
I trimmed my toe nails
And they fell into a nearby patch of carpet
With wisdom, just a seed enough
(I knew it was not too long before the thunder)
But with love, I’m in your tree
(Would bellow through the sky and take away)
Reading poetry and smiling
(The melancholy wiper blade weeping)
Please let me safely feel my heart
Please let me safely touch the beyond
Please let me safely be my heart
(Please let my body know the soil)
Please let me slowly ripen up
(Please let all moments be my home)
Please let me slowly ripen up
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released April 12, 2024
